Operating on the 49th vibration.

I made a worry book and I'm getting excited about being creative with all my worries and fears.

Today's calendar art makes me happy and laugh a little.

Books in my stack:
Energy Medicine by Donna Eden (not Barbara Eden)
Rays of the Dawn by Thurman Fleet
Hope and Help for your nerves by Dr. Claire Weekes
There is a River; the story of Edgar Cayce by Thomas Sugrue

I've read the latter two already, Hope and Health twice.  The Fleet and Eden books are the type that I pick up here and again and look through.  I flipped to "Patience" in Rays this week and the next day I clicked on an Animal Medicine link in this Doowans website I found, you click on a peace-pipe smoking wolf, it randomly landed on Ants, which is medicine of patience.  I'm just going to go with the flow and accept that the universe is telling me to be patient.

What I learned this morning:
1. Telsa thought that crystals were living beings.  I'm totally down with that.  It goes with my thoughts that everything is alive.  I've been dabbling in crystal medicine.  Quartz and Iron so far.  I have a hematite heart.  Oh yeah, I remembered that specular hematite is an old love, I used to call it spectacular.  My old geology lab partner and I memorized some of our minerals using Guns n' Roses;  Apatite and my, my, my Serpentine!

2. There is something in our body called an omentum.  It's like a fatty mesh covering our stomach and liver.  I was more interested in the stomach mesh, called the greater omentum.  I read about it here in wikipedia.


Why am I turned off from law of attraction claims?  I always equate it with success in money and that repels me.  It doesn't seem very responsible.  Ah.  This reminds me of my sworn hatred of money because of my mom and dad's fights over money when I was a kid.  Ok, I got the answer.  haha!  Man, will I ever grow up?  love ya kid.

House Intelligence Hearing on Russian Interference Tactics

https://www.c-span.org/video/?459258-1/house-intelligence-committee-examines-russian-election-interference-tactics

Mockingbird

I listened to a lovely rendition of several birds songs from a mockingbird this morning as I worked at the front desk.  Mockingbird was going off!

In other news, I think Mitch McConnell should be expelled from Congress for abuse of power, Article 1, section 5.

And of course, dear media, it's the Barr Letter, not the Mueller Report.  We need to see the full report.  Otherwise, this is just a cover up and, as I suspect, a takeover.  We aren't going to give you our country GOP hypocrites.

Me on the Weekend

Don't ask!

Eye of Aquarius

The Helix Nebula is the closest nebula to our planet, at 700 light years.  It resides in the Aquarius constellation. 
Nebulas are just dust and gas.

Heart

I'm carrying something for you

I'm carrying, can't help it


Happy Birthday, this reminded me of you xoxox

Remember this?

Did Paul Ryan make this border wall video to appease Trump?  He was never going to help Trump get his wall.  Maybe he thought the small-minded, TV-watching, fake president would be lulled by the advertisement and forget about it for awhile.  It seemed to work until Fox News stirred it up again, oh, and the Democrats won the house...

Trump, the Adderall addled cheat, must be removed today.



I am waiting, I am waiting
Oh yeah, Oh yeah

Slow or fast, slow or fast
Oh yeah, Oh yeah
END AT LAST, END AT LAST
Oh yeah, Oh yeah
Waiting for someone to come out of somewhere
Waiting for someone to come out of somewhere

Stand up coming years
And escalation fears
Oh, yes we will find out
Well, like a withered stone
Fears will pierce your bones
You'll find out

totally in tears

I see your face
You ask me how I am
A quiver in my lip
and your answer not too far

How do I get to nearly in tears?
How do I get to nearly in tears?

In your doctor's office
or anywhere that cares
give me all your tissues
cuz here come the tears

I hear about people nearly in tears
But here am I, totally in tears

How do I get to nearly in tears?
How do I get to nearly in tears?

How do I let go, release all these fears?
How do I get to nearly in tears?

Necessary Voodoo

We are the Earth intruders
Muddy with twigs and branches
Marching
March

The scene on my drive to work:
Listening to Beatles channel still
I should have known better
You're gonna say you love me too
Seems a bit strong-arm
Thought about AOC and started to cry because at such a young age she has this much poise and is doing it (she has what it takes to do it! --inside joke to myself-way inside-deep!)
Thought about an interview with Sean Lennon talking about his memories of his dad
Pretended to meet Sean Lennon and tell him about the part of the interview I liked--his dad would always turn off the television when commercials would come on and he would always turn it back on at the right time.  Also, the part with the little sweet fishes for snacks instead of candy.
Then I said to Sean that my son is older than you were when...and I couldn't say it, I just started crying and Sean didn't want me to cry and grabbed my arms gently and said here, let's find my mom.  And then I saw Yoko Ono and said Oh Yoko and just started sobbing in her arms....Well, I was crying in my car.


We are the Earth intruders
We are the sharpshooters
Flock of parachuters
Necessary VoooOOOdoo

We are the Earth intruders
Muddy with twigs and branches
Marching
March
March
March
March

Hair goals

My hair's goals and my goals are incompatible.

Fuck Yeah!

There's a record convention on the 14th of February!!


And now an improvised love poem...
I wish I could write it better
but maybe the crux is cellular
mothering my daughter cells
minding my energy centers
sloughing off the rotten memories
is it working?
or was it just bad lunch?
perhaps there is interference with my love receiver?
or maybe my shoes are too tight, Mr. Griiiii-inch!
I want to touch you with a 39 and a half inch pole
na na na-na Nee-ne, na na na-na Nee-ne
Maybe I need to let go of the dissonance...
but the consonance seems so cloying.
Can you have dissonance that is constructive interference?

Happy Valentine's day ...a conspiracy brought to you by a holiday card magnate, a chocolatier and a jeweler from the heartland.

This morning Yes it is

I have the Beatles channel in my car for a month and this morning they played This Boy again, which is fine, I love it, but of course it was making me yearn for my more favorite, Yes it is.  And guess what?  Yes it is played next!  Yes it is.  I remember John's memory of meeting Yoko. He went to an art installation and there was a ladder that he had to climb up to the ceiling and there was a piece of paper with the word Yes.  Yes it is.  He had to meet her.  Yes it is. My daughter woke up next to me this morning...ahem, every morning...and said I had a wonderful dream about you and then demanded that we fix the broken miniature high chair so that her babies can sit in it.  I said ok.  Yes it is.  This morning someone said, Hello Trouble to me and my response was I haven't been called Trouble since I was jail bait.
Yes it is, it's true, yes it is.

Magic eyes

Today is the 1 year anniversary of the end of my galactic odyssey.  A former co-traveler on that excursion, my daughter, informed me a few days ago that she had magic eyes.  She said she can close her eyes and be at grandma's.

Yesterday I saw a bald eagle swooping down to grab at something in a lake.  I guess I have a new totem.

It must be creative.  It must be creative.  That's what the universe is telling me.

Also, it's too soon to say, but I guess it finally dawned on me that everyone is right.  I'm scared.  Scared shitless.  I think my attitude is going to be:

And another thing who cares?!  No, I'm just going to just accept that I'm afraid and keep walking through.

Yesterday was a new moon and I saw it's also called a micro moon.  I'll have to see what that's about. 
There's a super snow moon on Feb 19 (Fuck yeah!).


Oh my god!  Someone finally put this up!  Hahaha! Thank you Bobby Pyn from YouTube.

Here's my list, this is what you need to do
Study for ecology quiz
Get your autowork done
Break the rules
Go to bank
Drop that one class
Subscribe to High Times

And Ariel's singing in the background is hilarious.  I might put this up again for February the 14th.  Fuck Yeah!  I will.

I love you me

Birthday greetings, bottle of wine!

Channeling Channing

I'm going to miss you Carol Channing!  Awl that jA-Ya-Aaaash!  Raspberries!  You were fun and made me happy.  And you were my birthday buddy! Bless your extraordinary soul! xxxxx, Andi

From wikipedia: In 1973, it came to light during the Watergate hearings that Channing was on a master list of Nixon's political opponents, informally known as Nixon's "enemies list". She has subsequently said that her appearance on this list was the highest honor in her career.

Thanks Mitch McConnell!

“Do we have no food for you? ... Or do we give you some little quick salads that the first lady will make, along with the Second Lady—they'll make some salads,” Trump said. "I said, you guys aren't into salads."

Mulvainey

Whilst I haven't been enjoying the continued Kremlin/Putin attack via a traitor President on my country, I have enjoyed the creativity of the graphic design that accompany the terrible headlines.  Thanks artists!
This one is about how Trump treats his people like shit.  Trump is shit.  Mulvaney gets what he deserves.

Look who's President Gas again

I think of this song daily....Fuck you Mitch McConnell.  Fuck Trump.

Impeach the MoFo

Howdy!

Howdy-do!
How do you do?

El misma dia

Happy New Year

Merry Christmas

Divine

Xmas Gift Ideas for John Waters

So it’s safe to assume you really love Christmas?

Yes, but there are some things that I hate about Christmas. I hate it when I get pears. How would anyone dare to buy me a pear? I’m always shocked when I open a box and there are six pears! I mean, how dare you? I can buy myself a goddamn pear! I think gift baskets should be liquor or cigarettes or porn, just things you’d never buy for yourself. A dear friend in New York sent me a basket of pears for Christmas last year and it did make me laugh when I actually saw one after I’d been bitching about them for so long.

 
Hey hey hbd ms. chan!

You remind me of Santa Claus

in a good way

I see you at night, I shine!

songs stuck in my head the last few days

Feeling pukey, feeling pukey
Nausea, nausea, all right now
there's another one that I can't remember right now that I will add later if I remember.
WWVPD?

Embracing my feminine side

This is a new series, where you follow me on my journey to figure out what it means to me to be feminine.  I spent a lot of my childhood trying to be accepted by boys, men and in doing that I nurtured my masculine qualities.  So now that I know why I did that, I can focus on embracing femininity in moi.  It's funny, cuz I almost don't know what it means to be feminine because I was so focused on being equal.  So here's how I'm going to start:

 

It's beginning to look a lot like