Operating on the 49th vibration.

I made a worry book and I'm getting excited about being creative with all my worries and fears.

Today's calendar art makes me happy and laugh a little.

Books in my stack:
Energy Medicine by Donna Eden (not Barbara Eden)
Rays of the Dawn by Thurman Fleet
Hope and Help for your nerves by Dr. Claire Weekes
There is a River; the story of Edgar Cayce by Thomas Sugrue

I've read the latter two already, Hope and Health twice.  The Fleet and Eden books are the type that I pick up here and again and look through.  I flipped to "Patience" in Rays this week and the next day I clicked on an Animal Medicine link in this Doowans website I found, you click on a peace-pipe smoking wolf, it randomly landed on Ants, which is medicine of patience.  I'm just going to go with the flow and accept that the universe is telling me to be patient.

What I learned this morning:
1. Telsa thought that crystals were living beings.  I'm totally down with that.  It goes with my thoughts that everything is alive.  I've been dabbling in crystal medicine.  Quartz and Iron so far.  I have a hematite heart.  Oh yeah, I remembered that specular hematite is an old love, I used to call it spectacular.  My old geology lab partner and I memorized some of our minerals using Guns n' Roses;  Apatite and my, my, my Serpentine!

2. There is something in our body called an omentum.  It's like a fatty mesh covering our stomach and liver.  I was more interested in the stomach mesh, called the greater omentum.  I read about it here in wikipedia.


Why am I turned off from law of attraction claims?  I always equate it with success in money and that repels me.  It doesn't seem very responsible.  Ah.  This reminds me of my sworn hatred of money because of my mom and dad's fights over money when I was a kid.  Ok, I got the answer.  haha!  Man, will I ever grow up?  love ya kid.

New wave hormones

My new obsession is herbs and tinctures.  I frequent Richard Whelan, Susun Weed, Henriette's Herbal websites trying to find herbal allies to human maladies, mostly mine.  Every tincture I find to my liking is added to my Amazon wishlist.  What should a 40 something woman do when she is having an existential crisis?  It's all normal.  It's all hormonal?  It's my life, don't you forget...and I want it to never end.



Herb tinctures I've tried: Motherwort(hormone balance, heart), Skullcap (nervine), Echineacea (immune system) and Elderberry(immune system).  All from Herb Pharm.
Also tried hemp derived cbd oil

Herb allies I want to try:  Cannabis cbd oil (illegal in my state and country which is a crime against humanity), Vitex (Chaste Berry), Red Clover, Reishi, psylocibin (microdose mostly)

Herbs in my back yard I want to use: Poke root for tincture(powerful immune system ally so use as last resort), Poke berries to swallow like pills (the seeds are poisonous, so don't bite them)

I found a new website that has a lot of articles on entheogens(also illegal and another crime against humanity), cannabis(must be legalized to combat the opioid crisis in my country) and other Herbs for mental health .

I'm not sure, but I think I'm suffering from hormonal imbalance.  It might be due to extended breastfeeding and unbridled anxiety.  Is it my pituitary gland?  Is it my adrenals?  Is it my estrogen?  Is it my progesterone?  Is it my insulin?  I don't know.  All I know is that I have hot flushes, nausea, shortness of breath and overall unwell feeling.

I managed to calm myself of my anxiety by reading Claire Weekes' Hope and Health for your Nerves. She recommends that you face your anxiety, accept it, float through it when it hits and let time pass to bring homeostasis to your over-sensitized nervous system.  She's really practical about it and shows that there is a pattern to all anxieties.  It is reassuring  that no one is a special case when it comes to sensitized nerves.

"I'm just a symptom of the moral decay that's gnawing at the heart of the country"