Thursday, November 16, 2017

New wave hormones

My new obsession is herbs and tinctures.  I frequent Richard Whelan, Susun Weed, Henriette's Herbal websites trying to find herbal allies to human maladies, mostly mine.  Every tincture I find to my liking is added to my Amazon wishlist.  What should a 40 something woman do when she is having an existential crisis?  It's all normal.  It's all hormonal?  It's my life, don't you forget...and I want it to never end.

Herb tinctures I've tried: Motherwort(hormone balance, heart), Skullcap (nervine), Echineacea (immune system) and Elderberry(immune system).  All from Herb Pharm.
Also tried hemp derived cbd oil

Herb allies I want to try:  Cannabis cbd oil (illegal in my state and country which is a crime against humanity), Vitex (Chaste Berry), Red Clover, Reishi, psylocibin (microdose mostly)

Herbs in my back yard I want to use: Poke root for tincture(powerful immune system ally so use as last resort), Poke berries to swallow like pills (the seeds are poisonous, so don't bite them)

I found a new website that has a lot of articles on entheogens(also illegal and another crime against humanity), cannabis(must be legalized to combat the opioid crisis in my country) and other Herbs for mental health .

I'm not sure, but I think I'm suffering from hormonal imbalance.  It might be due to extended breastfeeding and unbridled anxiety.  Is it my pituitary gland?  Is it my adrenals?  Is it my estrogen?  Is it my progesterone?  Is my insulin?  I don't know.  All I know is that I have hot flushes, nausea, shortness of breath and overall unwell feeling.

I managed to calm myself of my anxiety by reading Claire Weekes' Hope and Health for your Nerves. She recommends that you face your anxiety, accept it, float through it when it hits and let time pass to bring homeostasis to your over-sensitized nervous system.  She's really practical about it and shows that there is a pattern to all anxieties.  It is reassuring  that no one is a special case when it comes to sensitized nerves.

"I'm just a symptom of the moral decay that's gnawing at the heart of the country"

Wednesday, November 15, 2017

Saturday, November 11, 2017

Consider your muscles

Consider your muscles. Lie down and visualize the whole organ that it is. Give it permission to relax at its tense spots. Let the sensation bounce around the circuit of points of tension. If you fear blood, veins, the beating of your own heart, release and welcome the electrical pulsation and the warmth it brings throughout your body. Keep releasing and tell yourself you are not afraid. You are a blue body with red muscles. You may shake intermittently, try to keep going back to your muscles. Must make muscles strong. Weak muscles will tense up and become deranged if a sudden awkward shift occurs in the body. Muscles must be strong for quicker reaction or response to sudden awkward shifts to the body.

-via benefits of ganja

Friday, November 10, 2017

Kremlin says

They do their best, they do what they can They get them ready for Viet Nam First rule is: The laws of Germany Second rule is: Be nice to mommy Third rule is: Don't talk to commies Fourth rule is: Eat kosher salamis

Thursday, November 9, 2017

Tuesday, November 7, 2017


And all that time you're needing me
Is just the time I'm bleeding you
Don't you get it yet?

Saturday, October 28, 2017

lair of the white worm

I watched most of this the other night, totally bizarre and I love it.  Hope to finish it soon.  The 1988 movie is inspired by the novel of the same title by Bram Stoker and the English legend of the Lambton worm.

Friday, October 27, 2017


Grotbags was a witch on a british children's program played by Carol Lee Scott.  I had never heard of this character nor actor until Ms. Scott's death this summer.  I would've loved to watch this as a kid!

Thursday, October 26, 2017

Tuesday, October 24, 2017

Oh my goth

I love this!  The title and gothness reminds me of Miriam the haunting short story by Truman Capote.


Also, now I'm deeply into my decision of becoming a nun when I was younger.  I didn't do it and I'm fine with that, but I'm laughing about how I viewed (or still view) it.  Simple, contemplative--me just sitting and staring and being lazy without anyone bothering me about it.  Sweeping my uncluttered room.  Same clothes.  Can hoe in the garden or make bread.  Of course that's for all the wrong reasons religion wise, but all good reasons to me.   I might be a nun that sings "Maria-a-an" for Halloween.

Tuesday, October 10, 2017

Number 9, Number 9, Number 9

19/9 Anny to my favorite man in the world! xoxoxoxxo

Monday, October 9, 2017

Damn. Right.

"That’s the “patriotism” of white supremacy. It’s not about our country. It’s about a bunch a fearful old white guys who wish they could live forever, who want everyone else to be punished in order to justify their miserable cynicism towards humanity."

From this article

For the weary

Tuesday, October 3, 2017


In July 2014, Vladimir Putin also visited Cuba, where he touted a decision to wipe clean 90 percent of the island's $35 billion debt to Moscow and announced deals to invest in Cuba's offshore oil industry.

Friday, September 22, 2017