Tuesday, November 15, 2016

Vote Notes

Here is some information about the current state of how our votes, our official voice, is being handled and how exiting polls are helpful in determining voter fraud.  Red and Blue shifts, Hacking, Corporate owned voting machines and ballot boxes, auditing equipment turned off, votes being destroyed before the normal destruction date...

Excerpts from:  Can we count election results... by Steven Rosenfeld, Alternet
Covertly, there was not just the open question of whether Russia would hack into election computer systems—voter rolls is one system, vote counting machinery another—but some real evidence that it might have happened in North Carolina.
What people heard about were scrambled voter registration database files in Democratic stronghold counties. What they didn’t hear about but what alarmed some computer scientists who track voting machinery, was the vendor that maintains North Carolina’s voter files was in all probability the “unnamed” Florida-based company hacked by the Russians. You can be sure nobody is quarantining those computer systems for immediate examination by computer security experts.
Jonathon Simons ...calls this one-way pattern the “red shift.” The bottom line, he said, is that both data sets—the exit polls released in real time on Tuesday, not “adjusted” later on to match the vote count, and reported results from election officials—cannot be reconciled. One has to be wrong, which raises questions about the polling, the machinery’s accuracy or vote count tampering. But without a transparent vote-counting process, people with questions run into a brick wall.
“We call a shift towards Republicans a 'red shift,' and a shift toward Democratic candidates a 'blue shift.' We are seeing no blue shifts in this election,” Simon wrote Friday. “This is a familiar pattern, indicative of electronic rigging, but in this case even more dramatic than usual.”
“With all that has been said and written about the vulnerability of the computers that count our votes in secret, one must ask why these votes and states shifted?” he continued. “And why the outcome-changing results are simply accepted as accurate and honest. There is every reason to investigate and then recount key states by hand where possible. This is too often not possible, because some of these results come from paperless, touchscreen computers. And even where possible, with optical scanners, it is just not done.”

Excerpts from a Steven Rosenfeld Interview with Jonathon Simon

SR: Let's go through this piece by piece, because it's a lot for people to really understand. You get the raw state-by-state exit polls that are commissioned by a big consortium of national media organizations. What did you find this year, that happened this week? What do you see in the raw data?JS: Of course, we don't get the raw data. The raw data would be... we have three definitions here. There's raw data, which is the actual questionnaires and the simple numerical toning up of answers on the questionnaire. That is never publicly released. It's if you want to characterize it as such, it's what's inside the sausage of exit polls, and we are not privileged to see that. I've had one opportunity in my life through an inside source to actually look at some of the raw data, but that's a very rare thing. It's not generally accessible to the public. Many of us have clambered for the public release of that raw data, certainly in the aftermath of the 2004 election and have been denied it.
just in this particular election, they bought machines in Ohio that had a feature in them that was basically capable of self auditing. It was a security feature. The Republican secretary of state of Ohio allowed the counties to switch off that feature. You have to ask why. You bought it and it had that feature. They said, Well, it would create chaos. You look at things like that and say hmm. You scratch your head and say, what is going on here? What may be happening in that darkness of cyberspace that the exit polls are giving us a pretty good hint about, but the vote counting system itself completely conceals?

The fact is, we are denied, when I saw we, the candidates, the public, very often election administrators, by the rules of their states, are denied access to the actual hard evidence we call it, that would allow a determination of whether the election has been accurately counted or perhaps has been illegitimately counted and manipulated. As a matter of fact, in quite a few states and usually under Republican control, but the Democrats have not been tremendously cooperative about this either. The trend has been for ballots to be removed from public record status so that they are no longer susceptible to four-year requests and similar public information requests, Freedom of Information Act requests. They are getting less transparent, not more so.

What we're left with is a system that was accepted more or less without real proof.
If that's what democracy is worth to us, then we deserve what we get. Democracy requires support. It requires citizen support. It requires an investment of care and an investment of vigilance and an investment of participation more than deciding, Yeah, I'm going to vote or I'm not going to vote. It requires the fulfillment of a duty to be part of the public that counts and observe the counting of the votes so we don't have the ludicrous situation where we hand our ballots to a magician who takes them behind a curtain, you hear them shred the ballots, comes out and tells you so-and-so won. This is what we've got now and it's what we've accepted. We spend more money in two weeks in Iraq then would cost us for 30 years to hand-count our elections. 

Monday, November 14, 2016

I see

So this is how this animal gets made?
I'm sharpening everything
everything is splayed
my accumulation is a riot
spilling out all over
no more free smiles
no more free breaths of fresh air
all my joy hidden for a select few
giving evil eyes all around
until I root all you fuckers out

Friday, November 11, 2016

Thursday, November 10, 2016

My anger is not only about this, but...

On Tuesday November 8, the country proved its misogyny runs deeper than most of us could have ever imagined. We chose to elect a man who has admitted to sexual assault over the most qualified candidate in history, who happens to be a woman. And to be a woman who has to come to terms with that fact is deeply, deeply painful. 

                                                                                            --Jessica Samakow





more to come

Thursday, November 3, 2016

Save the Pangolins!

Photo by Paul Hilton













This is the most trafficked animal in the world.
They live in Asia and Africa.
It's the only mammal known to have protective keratin scales.
It's tongue can be longer than it's body.
They curl up in a ball like a roly poly when threatened and emit noxious chemical like the spray of a skunk.
At times they exhibit a bi-pedal stance for some behaviors and are good swimmers.
Arborial species live in hollowed trees, while others dig and live in burrows.
They are insectivorous and consume an avg 140-200g of insects per day.
Pangolins have poor vision, rely on smell and hearing.
Evidence shows a close relationship to the Carnivora order that consists of hyena, bear and wolf.
They are a popular bush meat and used as medicine for many different ailments, including kleptomania.
South China and Vietnam's over consumption, in addition to deforestation, is the reason that all 8 species of Pangolins are listed as threatened to extinction, with two species are listed as critically endangered.
Here is an organization dedicated to saving the Pangolin.

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Wednesday, October 26, 2016

Found poem

Budget hole
Budget hole
look into the budget hole
staring down a
$290 million hole in the budget
Time is ticking on
the S+P credit watch
the vampire governor
feeds on infrastructure,
education, old tobacco winnings

Tuesday, October 25, 2016

Lunch break

Sunshine on blast
Hard rootbeer lunch break
Peachcake Emergency
Smoking woman in TNT-DAD car
Side-eyeing highway hippies
peddling for bread
sky high hawk
riding the wind

Friday, October 21, 2016

same time last year

Yeah, I'm feeling butterscotch. 

From: Wali Land
Sent: Wednesday, October 21, 2015 9:34 AM
To: Darbi Moines; Chelsea Nijitu
Subject: ?


What kind of candy should Ben Zobrist get?  Moustakas has rootbeer barrel, Cueto has blue jolly rancher….butterscotch?  The color works.

Tuesday, October 18, 2016

I need to purge--Update, November 9th go away

Cuz all this shit is
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Come on November 9th.  Just come on. (Ooo!  Nov 9..nine-nine..9 is going to be our lucky number)


And just to show that I'm purged, here is a chant I made up this morning:

Aren't we lucky today
To see a familiar face
We usually see it at night
Right now it's shining so bright

la la la la lala, Morning Moon
la la la la lala, Morning Moon

Thursday, October 13, 2016

Current

"He's the center of our Universe
 and every news outlet's wall paper.
This man needs no introduction.  America's bully, Truuump!"

"Everybody is sued and everybody is going to jail!!!"

Even jail is going to jail

What Trump supporters are fed:
 I love you too. Being a democrat all of my life, I am now aware of the ever changing disastrous actions the democrats are taking and have been for a while.. I have done much research, reading, listening and cutting through the bull crap to get to this place, in my choice and thoughts. I cannot deny what is happening and the history of Hillary as well. It cannot be denied. The most current info: It has been confirmed by Wikileaks that Hillary is in bed with the main stream media, along with just about everyone else. For heaven's sakes, she is receiving the questions prior to the debates. There is so much information out there it blows my mind. However, those who are really not "hearing" what it is her intentions are, and that is to open our borders to the world, while she has privately stated there is no way to vet these people. Do you not believe that Obama has instructed the FBI not to prosecute Hillary? He is in those emails. In addition Comey is a huge contributor to her/Clinton Foundation, and his brother is the accountant for the Clinton Foundation. Do you think the meeting on the tar mac between Lynch and Bill were about grand kids etc.? Do you think 33,000 emails that were bleached bit AFTER Congress subpoena her, was just an accident, an expensive accident as well? Why? They were suppose to be only about yoga and a wedding. Ha!! She put our National Security at risk. Anyone else would be in prison. The one marine who took 6 photo's while on a submarine, is now serving a year in prison for compromising our security. She told people and the families of loved ones lost in Benghazi it was regarding a video, while telling her daughter it was indeed a terrorist attack. She told the American people it was a video. Our Ambassador was tortured unmercifully before being killed. Our military men were dressed, ready, in their planes ready to go, given the word. They were 20 minutes away. 20 Minutes!! Do you like the idea of Open Trade? Does it make you happy or comfortable to hear we are $22 Trillion in debt? and all of the promises made to the African-American's, Latino's and other immigrants never happened. We still have plantations, ghetto's, and late term abortions provided. Planned parenthood (who I have supported fully in the past, and now believe needs major regulating) are selling baby body parts. That is just wrong. These are babies who are fully intact and could survive after birth, but are sucked apart bit by bit. OMG, it brings me to tears. Margaret Sanger, a "hero" of Hillary, opened the abortion clinics back in the early 1900's to eradicate (eliminate) the African American race along with immigrants from Europe, including women who did not come across or appear to be a quality white person, all under the guise of Planned Parenthood. Thousands were sterilized against their will. I appear to be digressing as there is sooooooo much ugly, corrupt, lying going on, it is very disturbing. Seriously Carol, the politicians are all in bed together and it is for themselves, not us, not America. TRUMP is not part of the political/professional politician world. I like that about him. The media is corrupt more than ever... whatever happened to unbiased news reporting? Real journalism? It does not exist. Michael Savage was stripped from the airwaves now doing his talk show else where, and Dennis Michael Lynch, yanked from the airwaves. The only one left is Hannity. CNN, MSNBC, NBC and like kind are all intertwined with Hillary and have been instructed to tear TRUMP down .... build Hillary up!! That is bull shit and we all know it. These are the facts. The 11 year old tape of Trump talking with one other man privately as men often do .... no need to pretend as woman are just as bad if not worse and the media went nuts blowing that so out of proportion I couldn't believe it. I thought, what the hell? We have some serious issues here folks to deal with, I could careless about that conversation. We are contending with ISIS, open borders, open trade, Hillary admitting we cannot vet these people. I don't want to become another England, France, Germany. That scares the hell out of me. I want the wall and I want closed borders. Mexico put up a wall to keep guatemalans out of their country and no one said a word. We have tried to send "bad" people back to their countries and they don't want them, they say YOU keep them. WTH? Have you researched the many people associated with the Clinton's who were going to testify at one time or another how they ended up DEAD?? Of course most recently you know from Wikileaks, the conversations between her aids, the mocking of Catholics and Christianity. Hillary herself never attends church and the fact Hillary just does not like the people! People like us, you and me. Now religion may not matter to one person but it is huge and very important to millions of others. I am not surprised she doesn't like the common American people, she has even stated she cannot relate given the life style her and Bill have become accustomed to. Are you familiar with Saul Ilenski? Most likely you are, if not, take a read. Do I want that kind of person for my President? NO. Do I want another 4 Years of Obama? NO. Do I want another 20-30 years of no accomplishments for the American people? NO. Do I want an expanded Obamacare? NO. Do I want a liar and blatant corrupt person as my President? NO. Do I want someone serving as my President, who would leave me out to die while pleading for help 600 times, because she cannot figure out a way to make money off of the situation? NO. Nixon was forced out of office over 18 minutes of erased tapes. Now you tell me ... how does this person continue to be allowed to run for President. You are a very bright woman and I have always respected you for this. I don't understand, your difference in politics at this particular time. Is Trump the ideal person? Maybe not, but he is change, he will fight, he will not back down. He is a businessman and he does know how to get things done. Well there are many things I like about him obviously over the other who I wouldn't trust to feed my grand mother. I like the fact Trump is not a career politician. I like the fact he owes no one anything, no favors, no promises. Oh and he loves America and the American people. He is a very very smart man with a very high IQ. Which is the worst of the two? Hillary obviously and it has been going on for a very very long time. I have to throw in, how she was under sniper fire when landing in Libya. LOL Not true, another lie. Goodness, she stole items out of the White House when they had to move out. I mean really, who does that? Hillary is crooked, evil, manipulating, callous, a major liar, plus. There is so much more to be said ... but my back hurts. I prefer Trumps plain talk, from the heart, even if it can be brassy at times, but it's real. I hope you did go see the movie Hillary's America. It was interesting, a lot of history, I was unaware of even .... if you haven't, do me a favor and take a listen. Just for the heck of it. Anway .... gotta run. I love you either way .... politics do not change who you are, the person I wanted to be my friend, the person who you are within. Have a wonderful rest of the week. Hugs and love to all.


Monday, October 10, 2016

Saturday, October 8, 2016

Thursday, September 8, 2016

sleep paralysis example

There was more to this dream, but here's how the interesting part starts:
my husband and I had to go somewhere.  We finally decided that taking a plane would be best.  I end up by myself still trying to get to the place, but on foot.  I dropped in like Mary Poppins on this really cute Tudor-like village. I see a shop that I think was something about knitting.. Reika's Knitting or something like that.. Another woman on the street goes into the shop ahead of me.  She starts talking to Reika and they both have British-like accents. I say, "may I please interrupt you two for a second?"  They turn and look at me and I say "where am I?"  The shop owner says something like "I can't tell you that right now" or "we will get to that later" I can't quite remember.  The three of us end up sitting at a table; Reika across from me and the other woman to my right.  Suddenly some force like invisible hands kind of pulls strands from my hair from my temples and simultaneously creates a band of pressure around my head and then possesses me.  I somehow throw my body over to the woman on my right and lean into her body maybe trying to grab her hand.  I try to talk, then try to scream but the force is too strong..it won't let me.. I try to move my hand and then my body but I'm paralyzed. After fighting for a bit, I finally am like, fuck it, and...dropped down inside myself (??)... and... make this low growl sound.  It released me and I woke up doing that sound.  I was lying on my back, which can inhibit sleep paralysis, and managed to turn a little to my side.  I was exhausted, but I was actually afraid to go to sleep right away because I didn't want to go back to that dream!  I focused on breathing and relaxing.  the end.

once I got my bearings I was able to loosely correlate the dream to my life.  It gave me a little hope that I will be released from anxiety.

Thursday, September 1, 2016

Monday, August 29, 2016

soft and dri-eyed Radio Station

Well, folks, looks like there so many Anxietites that we had to make a whole radio station to satisfy the needs of Americans dealing with this social scourge.  Enjoy the current line up:

6:00-6:30 Wake up to Burl!  All Burl Ives all the time.  Well, for 30 minutes.  Get your day started whimsically with happy folk songs sung by Burl!
6:30-7:00  The Public Domain Review.  Our girl Jennie reads aloud titles of interest to her from the wonderful Public Domain Review.
6:30-9:30 Good mood  Get in a good mood with sounds of silence and comforting voices and words to get through rush hour.
9:30-10:30 Hour Massage.  Hulga Hildebrande gives guests an hour long massage.  Use this as inspiration to finally make that appointment!
10:30-12:30  Rox talks Socks: Roxanne Pinolo muses about her favorite socks, brands, colors, patterns.  Long, short, fuzzy, sleek, no stocking will be ignored and every stitch will be discussed.
12:30-12:45 Short Order. Short Order cook, Winston Marsalis, plays the griddle with sizzle sizzle.
12:45-1:00  Open Mic. We are currently auditioning for soft, tender and kind voices to read pretty and relaxing poetry for this spot.
1:00-3:00  Do I have a yarn for you:  Andi Tenderheart's talk show of her yen for yarn.  Join her in this feel good session about all she knows about yarn.  She will talk about soft, fluffy, round pom poms for hours.
3:00-3:15 Gas stations of yore:  Old timers are interviewed about the history of their local stations.  Let the creaky voices swept away in reverie massage those nerve endings that are about 3 feet from your skin by now.  No stories with over-emotion will be aired.
3:15-3:45  Plant-a-day.  Each day learn about a new plant.  With around 400,000 species in the world, we have plenty to talk about.
3:45-4:00 Choppin Broccoli!  ...and cucumbers and carrots and whatever vegetable Chef Pepin wants to chop:
4:00-6:00 ask the calm dude: Dudius Maximus, Chalm Stalward, lends a guiding hand to right us through the storm.  ask him anything.  He is happily the most chillest dude on earth.  And we got him on Soft and dri-eyed Radio Station just for you.

  I can't listen to regular radio at all anymore, I drive in silence.  I still click on the news online, but I can't really take it.  it's a weird addiction I guess.  Do I really need to know all this stuff?  And what can I do to eliminate all this over-stimulation?  -Stressed in Middlesex

Dear Stressed in Middlesex, you are very good to notice that you are overstimulated.  After all anxiety is just a dis-ease of the nervous system.  Your nerves are over active.  You are a sensitive person.  This is okay.  Some day I think we will all look to you as the canary in the coal mine, but I hope we will be proactive rather than reactive.  I think silence is a good start and yes, you must try to avoid regular news.  It's okay to take a break from it.  After all, the inflammatory sells and it just hikes up your shoulders more.  Again, it's okay to take a break. It doesn't mean you have to never know what's going on the in the world forever.  Just remember to back away.  you will see that the big news doesn't really impact your every day life.  I suggest the newspaper, Hushpost, that focuses on good news only and lots of our more cuter, more fuzzier cousins.  It might give you the outlet for your online clicking addiction.  Keep up the good work, but don't over think it.  Roll with it, Calm dude
6:00-7:00  Let's do Sauna!  Jorma Jurgensen gets enthusiastic about Sauna!  Meet his fun and unusual guests that are just as enthusiastic about Sauna as Jorma!
7:00-8:00 My three lizards.  Listen to my three lizards, Rob, Chip and Ernie...you might hear them rustle around, but you can imagine them sitting very still...maybe blinking an eye or smelling with their tongue. Pure heaven.
8:00-10:00 Leon Lavender at night.  nothing unsettling here, only good relaxing vibes and everything lavender. Leon's velvet voice will stroke your hair and make you feel like you are lying your head in your mother's lap. Let it go, let yourself go, slow and low that is the tempo.
10:00-12:00  Nigh-nigh-a-go-go.  Snuggle up in your bed and listen to songs that will comfort the child in you.  A wide collection of nursery songs to lull you to sleep.
12:00-3:00  Insomniac Quest. For you insomniacs out there, here is a strange odyssey of one man who travels during the night whilst everyone is asleep.  Can you keep up or will it put you into dreamland?  One can only hope.
3:00-6:00  Warm Fuzzy.  DJ Fuzzy spins white noise, sweet humming (never creepy), silence, a collection of empowering quotes read by famous voices (Yes, Vincent Price is one of them) float in between more white noise, radio waves and silence.

Wednesday, August 24, 2016

Friday, August 12, 2016

periodical curiosities / crushes

new grapes called jammies, bursting jam spheres in your mouth!











Stranger Things, hearkens back to my horror movie lovin' childhood-Stephen King shout out!











Documentary Now!, soon! soon! soon!  season 2















yarn and pom poms, i want to be surrounded by a million pom poms and yarn garlands!








neopolitan ice cream sandwiches, I don't need to choose a flavor and I also need a pin of one of these










pins!, tuesdaybassen, sambypen, pintrill, rosehoundapparel, others I haven't discovered












Ice water, it is so quenching and delicious












kissing my babies' cheeks, they are starting to get annoyed

cheeks ripe for kissing:














Bonus: google image search for strange things

Wednesday, August 10, 2016

definition

trumppence: a trivial substance

Monday, August 8, 2016

firsts

I have to document the new firsts you are doing, little girl, and I'm sorry I haven't kept up like I did with your brother.  I didn't want to be so typical, but alas, I guess there's a reason the second child doesn't get the attention of the first... yeah...I know...the first!
So, your father and I came to the consensus that your first word was dada around March, but now in your 15th month on earth you have accumulated a few more...

bye bye - you say dye, dye (to your toothbrush, gleefully)

Ball -  Bah  ( you can throw a ball really well!)

hi (this was probably your second word and maybe really the first that was the clearest--you say this word really cute and high and often times is accompanied by a wave)

uh-oh (you make this exaggerated "o" with your lips that is adorable)

mum mum (kinda...I mean, it's not that clear, but you like me and I don't care. :) )

no (you said this very clearly at 5 o'clock this morning)

update 8.15: go and ouch! also, you sign for "more"

you communicate rather effectively by shaking your head yes and no and you do it kind of funnily...in fact, you are funny.  Your dad and I think so...your brother has commented on it as well.
You growl.
you walk around like a champ--your first steps were Friday June 24th--you already run ok.
Just yesterday you wanted a cape like your brother so we borrowed your dad's red bandana and tied it around your neck...we have pictures.  You love it!
Your brown eyes are really expressive and sometimes you make an effort to catch my gaze, stare into my eyes and we smile. :)

Friday, August 5, 2016

list of things

I like cuddling my children fresh from sleep

So Salty Free is my new mantra

I'm going to start a jean jacket gang

Hot high school kids can turn into rotten toothed trolls

Hopefully I will be stuck in my happiest moment until mid November

I am at all times in full compliance

When my kids get older we will add a turtle to our family

Always be anti- anti-

Always be andi andi

Gonna pom pom bomb this mutha