Tuesday, March 27, 2018

Rescue Remedy

February 14, 2013
I have been using the flower essence Rescue Remedy since
1993 and learned about it from a brilliant medical Dr. in
Asheville, NC. Fancy that??? I am a grown woman, but had
residual childhood fears about going to bed at night. My
fear was that someone was under my bed, and would
grab my legs as I got into bed. As embarrassing as it seemed
at the time, I confessed this to my MD. I also told him that I
would jump into the bed from a distance of 2 feet each
night, and wake my sleeping husband. The first night that
I put about 4 drops of RR under my tongue, I walked to the
bed, and got in without anxiety or incident. There was no
fear. That same night, during the early morning hours of
sleep, I had a hallucination while dreaming. This creepy
specter appeared in the corner of my room. I woke up and
looked at the genie-like man whose smokey appearance
stared down at me while slowly puffing on a cigarette.
I know this sounds insane, but it's true. Normally I would
have flipped all of the lights on, pulled the sheets up to my
nose, and sat awake in bed until dawn appeared. I would
have been mortified. Instead, I just looked up at the
apparition, rolled over and went back to sleep. The next
morning I had to pinch myself to grasp the events of the
night. Most of all, I was completely amazed that I had
entered the bed without incident, and that I worked
through what would have been a shocking and unsettling
experience during the night. I knew then that there was
something to this product.




This has got to be one of my all time favorite Amazon
Reviews.  There's more to it and Squarecrow gives good
advice for it's use, but the hallucination part is the best.
 Oh, and the use of the fantastic word obstreperous! I had
to look it up. This and many other reviews convinced me
to buy some Bach's Rescue Remedy on the way home
yesterday. I was feeling desperate. My appetite has been
terrible and I started the day with a panic attack that
lasted from 4-6am. As soon as I got in the car I dropped
4 drops on my tongue. I didn't hallucinate which at this
point I'm grateful, I couldn't have handled that, but I did
notice a blunting of the background anxiety noise. I still
felt the effects from my poor appetite, the nausea and
my left arm/shoulder issue that may be a bit of nerve
damage?? I don't know, but it's worrisome because
it's on my left side and it makes me fear that there is
something wrong with my heart. I kept taking the Rescue
Remedy here and there throughout the evening and I also
ate a bit of dinner. I started to feel a bit better, a sense of
calm, like, yes, I can feel my body doing all these things
that make me feel sick, but I'm not going to get all keyed
up about it. I did wake up in the middle of the night with
a mild hot flash or just sweaty and it did take me awhile
to get back to sleep, but I didn't wake in the lung hour
and I didn't have a panic attack in the morning. I did wake
in the Liver Hour, but I just had to use the restroom and
my daughter was whimpering in the next room (her diaper
leaked). Yes, I said that, the NEXT room. HER room. She
has slept all the way through (well, I mean she cried in the
middle of the night, but remained in bed while I comforted
her for a few minutes) for TWO NIGHTS!! I'm in shock,
but Bach's Rescue Remedy has an herb in it's recipe
for that.


Bach's Flower recipe for Rescue Remedy-


Rock rose for panic and terror

Star of Bethlehem for trauma and shock

Cherry Plum for fear of losing control

Impatiens for, ahem, losing patience and reducing stress

Clematis for clarity and alertness in the present moment

27% grape based brandy


Weird, so flower essences are just dew drops that rested
on the flower in the morning sun??? Look at this from
wiki--


Bach derived his solutions intuitively[15] and based on
his perceived psychic connections to the plants, rather
than using research based on scientific methods. [16]p.
185 If Bach felt a negative emotion, he would hold his
hand over different plants, and if one alleviated the
emotion, he would ascribe the power to heal that
emotional problem to that plant. He imagined that
early-morning sunlight passing through dew-drops on
flower petals transferred the healing power of the flower
onto the water,[17] so he would collect the dew drops from
the plants and preserve the dew with an equal amount of
brandy to produce a mother tincture which would be
further diluted before use.[18] Later, he found that the
amount of dew he could collect was not sufficient, so
he would suspend flowers in spring water and allow the
sun's rays to pass through them.[17] If this was
impractical because of lack of sunlight or other reasons,
he wrote that the flowers may be boiled. The result of this
process Bach termed the "mother tincture", which is then
further diluted before sale or use.


oh well, if it's placebo, then it's working--I will freakin
take it.
I enjoyed reading this on Dr. Bach. Flower essences are
considered vibrational medicine.  This is one of my
favorite scenes:



"Human kind is simply materialized color operating
on the 49th vibration."






Tuesday, March 20, 2018

Are you loving how you're living

Is it treating you well Do you greet the early morning alone Are you leaving who is loving you In spite of it all Are you closing it down To get away from it all


Monday, March 12, 2018

I was born in America!



born with the fists of a saint
Way out of range

born with the fists of a cowboy
Home on the range

Saturday, March 10, 2018

I'll stop the world and melt with you



You've seen the difference and it's getting better all the time.




Friday, March 9, 2018

North Korean-Russian House of Friendship

Sorry true Russians, I don't mean to make your country the scapegoat, but believe me, it's not the hearty wonderful people of Russia that I'm talking about.  It's your leaders, the Kremlin gang.

The Kremlin hacked the Olympics in South Korea using North Korean I.P. addresses.

Does this Olympic fail give affirmation that it was Kremlin hackers pretending to be North Korea that were responsible for the Sony hack?
Was the Sony hack the inspiration or the first step to test the waters for the 2016 election hack?

Today, I learn from this NYT article that according to the UN, North Korea has been supplying Syria with elements used for chemical weapons.  Although, North Korea and Syria have had a relationship since the 60's, which I didn't know--interesting and odd, I do wonder if there is a Kremlin connection in this recent exchange.  The Kremlin has taken an interest, albeit a lead, in the Syrian war.  How the hell does a poor, hermit nation like NK supply these things to war torn Syria?  Who is bankrolling North Korea?

Kremlin has provided aid North Korea, they forgave 90% of the debt NK owed to Krems, they have set up a ferry system just in the last year, they are not helping with the US sanctions against North Korea.  Red alert: the sanctions should be against the Kremlin, not North Korea.
North Korea owes Russia.

Kremlin is a big brother to North Korea, Kremlin is calling the shots.  Vladimir Putin is causing chaos so that he can remain in power.  His greed is full, but his vision is empty.  He has nothing to offer to the world but pain.  Putin is not a good steward of this planet.  Putin is a scourge.

Their's is a weird back and forth, hot and cold relationship according to Wikipedia:

On December 2013 Russia joined the sanctions against North Korea, introduced in March by the U.N Security Council(Resolution 2087). The corresponding decree signed by President Putin specified that Russian companies were prohibited to provide North Korea any technical assistance and advice in the development and production of ballistic missiles. In addition, North Korean naval vessels to call at Russian ports would be required to undergo inspection. Also, the authorities ordered to be vigilant when dealing with North Korean diplomats.[22][23]
In May 2014 Russia and North Korea have agreed to settlements in rubles in all trade between the two countries.[24] The first transactions in rubles between Russia and North Korea were carried out in October 2014.[25]
In March 2015, a Russian official said Moscow and Pyongyang have agreed to discuss the creation of advanced development zones in Russia’s Far East and North Korea.[26]
In May 2016 the Central Bank of Russia ordered all Russian banks to halt financial dealings with North Korean agencies, organizations and individuals on the U.N Security Council sanctions list. The move was in line with the United Nations Security Council resolution adopted in early March to penalize North Korea for its fourth nuclear test and long-range missile launch and curb its weapons of mass destruction program.

A few odd facts on North Korea gleened from this blog by Marcelo Guadiana. I double checked them against other well known reputable news sources and these appear to be legit.

  1. The giant rabbit feeding program. Kim Jong-il showed interest in breeding giant overweight rabbits in 2007. He got this idea after seeing Karl Szmolinsky, a German rabbit breeder, breed the world’s largest rabbit. Szmolinsky sent overweight rabbits to North Korea but the experiment turned out to be a failure when it was suspected that lil' Kim was eating them for himself.
  2. Human feces government program. Farming fertilizers used to be imported from South Korea. However, South Korea stopped sending them in 2008. The government, therefore, created a program where farmers had to use their own fecesas fertilizers. Factory workers have to meet a quota of two tons of human feces.
  3. Military programs use most of the funds. North Korea spends a lot of its funds on the military. In 2001, the country spent more than $5 billion on military spending alone, which is more than 30 percent of the country’s GDP. North Korea is believed to have around half a dozen nuclear weapons.
  4. Despite high poverty rates, the leader is worth $5 billion. According to the 2011 corruption index from Transparency International, North Korea is officially the world’s most corrupt country. It is estimated that Kim inherited $4 billion from his father. According to a South Korean news organization, he is worth as much $5 billion. The money is held in secret accounts in European banks and comes from counterfeiting, the sales of narcotics and other illegal endeavors. Kim also spends vast amounts of money on luxury goods. It is reported he spent $645.8 million in 2012.
  5. Crystal meth epidemic. North Korea suffers a widespread meth epidemic. To negate the horrid economy with little to no government help, the production of drugs is used as an economic stimulus. In 2000, North Korean factories began to produce methamphetamine. This caused an increase in the domestic use of meth. The drug is now very occurrence and is seen as something of a luxury. As a result, many North Koreans have become addicted to the drug. It is estimated that 80 percent of residents have used the drug while 40 percent are addicted.
Sochi and Olympics in general:  Do they have anything to do with anything?  Is there a FIFA-esque corruption element here?

https://www.huffingtonpost.com/entry/north-korea-brazil-passports-visas_us_5a959042e4b036ab0142eda0

And now the miraculous Kim Jung un and Donald John Trump meeting in May.  Political theater brought to you by Trump, Putin and the complicit GOP.  Where is that picture I took at the doctor's office lobby of lil' big Kim on the cover Time magazine with a half eaten Twinkie laying on top of it?

Thursday, March 8, 2018

Waking in the Lung Hour

















I keep waking up in the middle of my sleep around 4am.  That's the Lung Hour.  According to Traditional Chinese Medicine, the Lungs are equated with the following:

Emotion: sadness/grief
Flavor: Pungent
Season: Fall
Color: White
Sound: Sssssssss

Breathing exercises and Nettle tea for me!


Illustration, Marcelo Jimenez

Wednesday, February 28, 2018

Waxing Gibbous

Who came up with that?
Hey, I like it!
Reminds me of gibbon monkeys
and the Brothers Gibb
Big goofy shining white
Expectant blob with a promise
Waning Gibbous sounds like a country singer name

Friday, February 16, 2018

Mueller Time

https://www.justice.gov/file/1035477/download

13 Russian Nationals indicted in Mueller investigation on charges related to meddling in US elections
The Internet Research Agency, operating out of St. Petersburg, was described in the indictment as a hub for a sophisticated operation designed to reach millions of Americans to disrupt the political process in the United States. Its annual budget was millions of dollars; its stated goal was to “spread distrust toward the candidates and the political system in general.” 
The goal of the Russian operation, which was dubbed the “translator project” and began in 2014 with a monthly budget of $1.25 million, was “information warfare against the United States,” the indictment alleges.  
-from NYT article.  This is where your money is going, dear True Russians.




xl Blue Persuasion



This meditation video kinda helped my throat chakra.  The blue and the font remind me of Bewitched and Disney Cinderella for some reason.  I really like the silky blue light and the singing bowls.  Some of the words were good too, some of them a little unsettling.  Faith.  I have a hard time with that word, I guess because I relate it to religion.  Also, the, thoughts are reality and words are thoughts and words are reality deal really alerted my senses as I, of course, started thinking of Trump.  God!  Anyway, at one point in the video the words- Words create reality, Truth, Wisdom, something like that, I was thinking, what if the words that are creating reality are lies and stupidity?  This is dangerous to human health.  This must not go on any longer.  How can we stop this?

Thanks D*&%  T*!%^& you fucked up my throat chakra!

Thursday, February 15, 2018

Fuck the NRA

The NRA is a terrorist organization that is holding the US hostage.  The gun laws outweigh a citizen's right to live.  Fuck you.  BAN ASSAULT WEAPONS. CAMPAIGN FINANCE REFORM NOW.  NRA should be banned from funding our lawmakers.

"With this sort of firepower, the gunman didn’t even need to have good marksmanship or anything more than a basic understanding of his weapons. All he needed to do was pick up a loaded gun, point it toward the helpless people in the distance and pull the trigger until it was empty, discard the spent rifle and pick up another one."

From this article.

Bess Kalb responds to thoughts and prayers tweets from law makers funded by the NRA.  "God have mercy on your NRA-kept souls"

The certainty of more shootings from 2012

Why a Congressional Ban on Bump Stocks is unlikely from Oct 7, 2017.  A week after our worse mass shooting to date.


A mass shooting increases the number of enacted laws that loosen gun restrictions by 75 percent in states with Republican-controlled legislatures. We find no significant effect of mass shootings on laws enacted when there is a Democrat-controlled legislature.

From Mass shootings don't lead to inaction--The lead to loosening gun restrictions.

The Autopsies for the the Victims of the Las Vegas Mass Shooting.

We are averaging one school shooting every 60 hours in 2018














When is it going to stop?  
What are we going to do?

To those who solely focus on the 2nd amendment. You have the right to bear arms of 1791 when this amendment was written: Brown Bess, Muskets, Rifles and flintlock pistols. We must ban assault weapons. These are weapons of war.

Seam ripper

It made it easier
For taking the stitching out
It made it easier
For taking the stitching out now
She was a seam ripper
She love to rip that thread
It took her so long to get it out
But she got it out
She had a tweezer
It took her half way there
She had a tweezer
It took her half the way there, now
She was a seam ripper
She love to rip that thread
It took her so long to get it out
But she got it out
Ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah

It's such a leisure
She has one on her night stand
It's such a leisure
She has one on her night stand, now
She was seam ripper
Stitchin' picker, yeah
It took her so long to get it out
But she got it out

Seam ripper, seam ripper, yeah
Seam ripper, seam ripper, yeah


Friday, February 9, 2018

Trump has broken the Oath




The Oath of Office:
I do solemnly swear (or affirm) that I will faithfully execute the Office of President of the United States, and will to the best of my Ability, preserve, protect and defend the Constitution of the United States.

Trump is already in violation of the oath.

Tuesday, February 6, 2018

Galactogogue

Otherside nee
Wurse

Those are the nicknames my son and daughter gave for the act of nursing.

It's been a crazy trip.
I really love the closeness and peacefulness that nursing provides.  It ran a little too long for me with both my children, but I'm sure I will look back upon it lovingly.

I do want to know if anyone else experienced a negative personal health aspect to extended nursing.  I mean, in the whole extended nursing realm nearly 2 and 2.5 aren't that long.  I am struggling with I guess anxiety that comes during ovulation and doesn't let up until well after I stop bleeding.  So I get maybe three days?  At least it isn't that bad this time around now that I know it's not something more serious.

day 2-deactivated

We are done. :(  It's a good thing, I know, but I can't help feeling a bit sad about it.  She asked to wurse about 1-2 hours before we normally wake up and I almost gave in because she asked so sweetly, but I thought it was closer to wake up time and said no.  She threw a little fit that made me feel not so bad about saying no.  She just turned her back towards me in disgust. :)
I can feel a spark of freedom, but right now I guess I need to mourn a little.  It's funny because I have been wanting this for the most part.  Especially since my anxiety or hormones or both have been uncontrollable and uncomfortable.  I keep thinking that maybe nursing is causing this feeling.  I guess we shall see, because it doesn't seem to be the copper IUD.
I keep trying to find relief in tinctures and tea, but I think I'm going nowhere with them.  Right now I am trying Ashwagandha, Reishi and Kava tea.  Oh and sage to dry up my milk. 

Crying over dried milk

What am I?
An old woman now?
No more babies, no more nursing
The factory is closed.
I'm crying over dried milk
because
just because
I'm crying over dried milk
cuz those days are done
Crying cuz the mid-life crisis has just begun
I can hold you and rock you, hold you and rock you
until you leave my nest
For now I will cry over my deactivated breasts.

It's time to pacify the pacifiers
Retire what made us all tired

Crying over dried milk
until my freedom soaks in

Monday, February 5, 2018

Galaxias Mamma

I love drinking these things

I love wursing

-Fio age 2.5, sweetly said a week before I take the thing she loves away.  :(

Sunday/Monday is the first night/day of no nursing since she was born.  We are done.  I'm kinda sad right now.
I know I will be happier once it sets in.


Thursday, February 1, 2018

Tuesday, January 30, 2018

Check your altimeters!

My kiddo loves this song.  And since it is SO my Ma for her progeny to love songs, I say thank you for enduring that crazy childbirth episode on your birthday to have me the next day. :) It was our own tandem jump!  I think you will love this song too, Mom!  I hope you dance and have a great birthday!!!



Monday, January 29, 2018

Don't fuck with Sara Moulton

She's a saint and I want to cry.
https://www.huffingtonpost.com/entry/sara-moulton-sexual-harassment_us_5a5788c2e4b05b7a92eeb834

Dear Sara Moulton,  I love you.  I know there are plenty of these terrible tales that are far worse than yours, but to think that you encountered this pains me so much!  Not you!!!  You are right, "everybody has to say no this is not acceptable."  Your sweet smiling face is going to mean so much more to me now.  I can't believe you say fuck and did coke!  I know, your presentation makes you seem perfect and everything that is good in the world and you know what, it still fucking does.  I love you Sara Moulton.  Thank you for telling this story of yours.




Thursday, January 25, 2018

Bloody Good!

Soooooooooooooooo....!  I just found out something else about my birthday moon!! Yeep!
It's not just a Super Blue Moon!  It's a Super Blue BLOOD Moon!!!  There's a lunar eclipse in the wee hours of January 31st that gives the moon a red tinge.  I'm going to have a lot of power on that day!

The last Super Blue Blood Moon was 150 years ago!


https://www.nasa.gov/feature/super-blue-blood-moon-coming-jan-31

hbdgmw